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we're all still dumb dumb dumber than the dirt dirt dirt on the ground
TODAY I REALIZED that I am a very self centered person. As of recently. 1) because since 5th grade I've been focusing so much on everyone else in my world 2) because they haven't focused back. I would like to say something right now while the rage is still fresh so that i can regret it later:
Stop trying to assert just how goddamned worldly and knowledgable you (really) are(n't) because just like you everyone is totally obsessed and involved with themselves so you're not impressing anyone. cities and states don't constitute experience with anything but traveling. maybe the reason you're trying to impress everyone is because you have such low self esteem that you need to prove to anyone, need approval from anyone, just to feel good about yourself.
I also would like some validation. but you don't see me going off about how i know humanity and all about metrosexuals because i spent a week in london, or about "what exactly is the mainstream" and you don't see me going on and on and on and on and fucking on about me and who I am and what I believe (except of course in my live journal because this is the proper forum) just to get people to think about me and how different and cOoL I am because i can identify myself through everything that I am and I know things and blah I'm a fucking arrogant jerk and i don't listen to people who are beneath me because i judge everyone even though i'm not comfortable with myself and fuck you i've got to get the fuck away from these people.
that made no sense.
but, anyway, none of these people have live journals and if they do they haven't used them in over a year, so if you're reading this it's likely i'm not bitching about you.
so basically i would like to leave the country and go to school where i don't know anyone and don't haven to worry about a social life at all and can just study, and write my books (also funny because while i always want to know what my friends are up to and show interest in their passions, even though i've been labeled since elementary school as "the writer" none of them have ever read a single fucking thing i've written or even shown interest in someday asking to maybe read anything) and find some semblance of relaxation.
(what i really want to do is "school them" all by doing something so mind blowingly awesomely inconcievably cool that they just shit their pants when they hear about it and never think they know more about anything than anyone else ever again. petty, unlikely, but funny to picture)
ok, time to get excited about my new car.
'96 white buick century, baby blue interior aka pimpinmobile
Stop trying to assert just how goddamned worldly and knowledgable you (really) are(n't) because just like you everyone is totally obsessed and involved with themselves so you're not impressing anyone. cities and states don't constitute experience with anything but traveling. maybe the reason you're trying to impress everyone is because you have such low self esteem that you need to prove to anyone, need approval from anyone, just to feel good about yourself.
I also would like some validation. but you don't see me going off about how i know humanity and all about metrosexuals because i spent a week in london, or about "what exactly is the mainstream" and you don't see me going on and on and on and on and fucking on about me and who I am and what I believe (except of course in my live journal because this is the proper forum) just to get people to think about me and how different and cOoL I am because i can identify myself through everything that I am and I know things and blah I'm a fucking arrogant jerk and i don't listen to people who are beneath me because i judge everyone even though i'm not comfortable with myself and fuck you i've got to get the fuck away from these people.
that made no sense.
but, anyway, none of these people have live journals and if they do they haven't used them in over a year, so if you're reading this it's likely i'm not bitching about you.
so basically i would like to leave the country and go to school where i don't know anyone and don't haven to worry about a social life at all and can just study, and write my books (also funny because while i always want to know what my friends are up to and show interest in their passions, even though i've been labeled since elementary school as "the writer" none of them have ever read a single fucking thing i've written or even shown interest in someday asking to maybe read anything) and find some semblance of relaxation.
(what i really want to do is "school them" all by doing something so mind blowingly awesomely inconcievably cool that they just shit their pants when they hear about it and never think they know more about anything than anyone else ever again. petty, unlikely, but funny to picture)
ok, time to get excited about my new car.
'96 white buick century, baby blue interior aka pimpinmobile