because I can't learn temperance

[lathriel]

I know I'm supposed to be embracing stillness and whatnot, but I've been excited by the mere prospect of this coming back onto the writing desk:

I think I'm going to start working on The Lotus Children again.

I THINK. I don't know. I love this story to death, but I can't decide whether to write it as I've always seen it (which is admittedly a sloppy bit of space opera drama- though still epic!) or try to fix it up and make it more... I don't know. I want it to be the best it can be, but at the same time I don't want to get wrapped up in making it something that will sell or appeal to huge audiences.

The thing is, when you get me started on these books there's no stopping. I have to tell you about the characters, their plight, the dramatic irony, the delicate web of fate, the cultures they come from and detailed cultural practices, the history of their worlds... I know these characters and their worlds inside and out, and to a degree I know their story better than my own. But I have a feeling that there is something in the way I need to tell the story that I haven't quite grasped.

Anyway, I was excited when this came up the other day, and I haven't really stopped being excited since. And holding true to my decision to only write because I love to, I suppose this is the most likely next project to work on :)

Comments

[littleloveflame.livejournal.com]

Trust your writer's heart to guide you. It is a very alive, vibrant and wise one.

I am different and it can be really obnoxious - I work on literally dozens of my book-kids at once. I say obnoxious because, it takes a long time to finish that way, and I am often feeling overwhelmed and like I am crazy for trying to do them all.

But - for ME it keeps the inspiration flowing and fresh, because one of those dozens is always calling me, and nothing ever feels stale or forced.
Most people though - would hate to write like I do. It might be a paragraph in one book in a month - and then 3 chapters in it the next - and then nothing on it for 3 months - and then one chapter - and blah blah. It's unpredictable and my muse is like a butterfly whose drunk from the different flowers.

It also keeps me writing only because I love to because I write on any given day what my Muse tells me to, not what my logical brain says I need to.

When I HAVE to focus hard on seomthing - like Temple 3 for example - I can do it, I can make myself and discipline myself to do it - but it's not how I love to write and not my natural way.

It always intrigues me how each writer is so different... and finds their own ways and rhythm -

I believe in you

[lathriel.livejournal.com]

I think your way of writing would be perfect for me, if I could trust myself to finish. I used to write just like that, but after years of it I had tons of unfinished manuscripts and not a single final draft.

Oh Muses!!!

*HUGS*

[littleloveflame.livejournal.com]

*nods* I have the same (alot of unfinished) and it scared me often to the point of trying NOT to write this way anymore - to just do one at a time and FINISH -
but I can't I try and I am miserable

and - even though it DOES take years (sometimes, quite a few...)
I am finally seeing that eventually, with loyalty on my part, the projects ARE getting done

at a snails pace, but one day all of a sudden, I'll have a whole lot written :-P :-)

It was hard for me to trust myself in this, too, and sometimes it still is - I am convinced I won't finish - but I am beginning to finally understand I was wrong. I will. I just need time and space for my drunk butterfly Muse.

*hugs a zillion of them*

[littleloveflame.livejournal.com]

note - the title of your entry here - temperance -
*see icon* the temperance card in the tarot is what saved my sanity through this struggle, actually
it slowly taught me that I don't have to give things up or cut them out, just keep good balance

It is a card that means a GREAT deal to me, I even have a pendant with it and wear it ALOT to remind me

my balance - can be precarious - but I am learning :-)