lathriel: (10th)
Since last week, I've been tweaking my method and adjusting to the idea of being okay with taking naps. Weekends are strange, because I usually don't feel the need to nap, so it interrupts the biphasic concept and my body just keeps on keepin' on (probably because there's a lot less stress). But as far as weekdays, it's been something like this:

6 AM - wake up
5/5:30 PM - nap, anywhere from 35 minutes to 2 hours
12:30 - 1:30 AM - go to bed

However, the other night I stayed up until about 2:30 AM, woke at 6 AM yesterday, was exhausted after work and slept 2 hours, stayed up till 1 this morning, and woke at 5:30 today feeling more awesome than I have in years, and I've had pretty stable energy all day.

So I think I'm finding a balance. It's difficult right now to gague what's sleep deprivation and what's exhaustion from it being the last stretch of a very long, very cold, very snowy winter (but hey, I'm still doing better than I was this time last year, or the year before, or before, or before! :p). So I'm letting myself nap longer when I need to, but I'm going to definitely keep waking up at 5:30, maybe even 5. I've started doing some calisthenic/bodyweight training in the mornings since I haven't been able to do kickboxing (due to stupid breathing issues), and having the extra time just makes mornings feel much easier, much more peaceful. Plus it helps to have the extra time to scrape my car off and drive slowly through storms or heavy traffic to get to the cafe and write.

Overall, though? I think the best thing I've discovered about biphasic sleep is that I'm in a better mood, like, all the time (except maybe right before I nap). I'm much more easy-going about things, and I've decreased the amount of pressure I usually put on myself to produce more and heal faster and make more progress on my goals.

I'm still tweaking things, and I would like to use my evening time to write instead of watch period dramas on Netflix (I mean the occasional period drama is fine), but that might need to wait until the weather warms up a bit around here. They say this weekend is going to set records with how cold it's going to be :(

Side note: to celebrate V-Day this weekend I booked myself a 2-HOUR MASSAGE for tomorrow night (only $100, and I know she's good because my parents go to her all the time!). Tonight (for tomorrow/the weekend), I'm making myself a primal-friendly cheesecake with a chocolate crust :9 Who says Valentine's Day has to be a bummer when you're single! I love myself more than enough. ;D
lathriel: (magdalene)
(First, GHOST CITY is now available in print on! Don't forget that if you buy the print version on Amazon you can also get the Kindle version for free thanks to their matchbook program! Now back to the post...)

I've never been a hater or a lover of Valentine's Day. When I'm in a relationship, it's a nice reason to do something extra special. It's also a...reason, I guess, to be bummed out if we *don't* do something extra special. And when I'm single...well, it's just a day when you know better than to ask your non-single friends if they want to plan to do anything.

The actual origins of the day are kind of murky. I've heard a lot of different stories (apparently there are MULTIPLE St. Valentines), so I've decided to scrap them all and just go with what it's about now: love. And since there's a lot of Valentine's Day cards being given out by and to kids in elementary school classes who hardly know each other, I'm going to say it's about all kinds of love, not just romantic. And there are definitely people (and critters) in my life that I love.

So I've been trying to figure out what to do on Valentine's Day this year so that I don't accidentally end up moping around the house feeling sorry for myself, or eating all of my feelings (I make really good double dark chocolate brownies, I'm just sayin'), or watching endless streaming Netflix while eating so that I don't actually feel anything at all.

And then it came to me: witchcraft. Duh.

Not to find love. Not to create more love. Not to heal old wounds. Just an evening filled with magic, honoring and celebrating the many forms of love already in my life. I'm not sure on all the details yet, but there will be witchcraft. There will be roses. There might still be double dark chocolate brownies (c'mon!). And I have the perfect little pink votive candle with a picture of Mary on it from Sarah and Jenn to use in ritual.

I am a Taurus. I recently heard an alchemical description of the Earth signs of the Zodiac as a tree: Virgo are the branches, Capricorn are the trunk, and Taurus are the roots. This makes sense to me. I've learned in the past decade that I am all about foundations, be it in forming relationships, making decisions, preparing for new experiences. If I have a solid foundation, I feel perfectly safe and excited to jump in and be spontaneous--if that makes sense. Like, if I'm traveling, as long as I have a foundation, a sense of where I'll be and what's there, and how much money I have to spend, I feel no need to plan things out or worry about a damn thing.

So I think I'll take this Valentine's Day to build a foundation for love in my life, so that I can love others better, experience love more easily, and even allow myself to be loved a little more easily than I have been.

Have a great Monday :)


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