Samsara

better pics to come when I take the plastic off :)

This tattoo has so much meaning for me.... like all of them, I suppose, but this one has the added benefit of making my entire back look like a page waiting to be filled.

I. Love. It.

Ok, so I'm stalling on the tattoo post, partly because I haven't been able to upload to flickr (my connection at home is "borrowed" so I can't rely on it) and partly because, while I'm okay with explaining the "it" tag, part of me wonders if it's necessary. My brother has been giving me a hard time about this tattoo because he doesn't "get it," but I don't get tattoos for other people, so who cares, right? Of course, if he did completely understand it he might feel very uncomfortable with the images in his head such understanding might evoke.

Anyway...

I had to go to the dentist today. The last time I went, they said I had a cavity that I needed to get filled. I never got it filled. Today, they said "no cavities, yaay!" ;D I win! Or my teeth win?

What else... I had a little psychic journey last night and came up with a theory that might blow my mind if it's true... I also learned on Saturday night that you can make delicious pizza on wraps if you broil it instead of bake it (so the bread part doesn't burn, but the rest of it cooks fast!). I think I might put The Tower on hold and work on The Poppet and the Lune instead...

I know, I know. It sounds bad. It sounds like I'm not confronting the novel. But I just have this feeling like it's not ready. I've been writing novel after novel for so long, I think I could use a break. Not from writing! Just from novels. TPatL is a series of short stories. I can finish the first one, and then see how I feel about The Tower. Yesh? One of the things I must keep in mind while trying to manifest publication and success is that everything comes in its right time. I'm not in a hurry. The Universe has delivered, and it's up to me to align with that reality. If I'm pressuring myself to get a novel done, that's not "being in the flow." I need to love the writing I'm doing, to see it as an act of joy. If I can't do that with the novel now, I think the short story is a good stepping stone.

Besides, holy shit, I'm leaving for Oxford in ONE WEEK :O omgomgomg I hope I meet people on the plane that are going to Brookes, and that they are nice.

Wow...

(end random post!)

So shakti is the primordial creative force according to Hinduism. It's also divine feminine energy. So the symbol, the adi shakti naturally calls to me to be tattooed on my body. I've been a total heterosexual lesbian lately. Women are so sexy; we're amazing creatures. I'm feeling all kinds of empowered about my own gender these past few months, and for the first time in forever I feel a real connection with the rest of the girls, as a girl. I'm not saying I was ever a tomboy, I just never considered myself very feminine. It seemed like a weakness, or at least I didn't want to encourage the duality of the universe.

Anyway.

That symbol is awesome, and it looks like a few different things to me. I'd like to get it as a tattoo, but altered- instead of the sword in the middle, a goddess with her arms upraised. Then again, I might just like it as it is. It's interesting that there are three swords in such a feminine symbol... but anyway, it being a super female-energy-related symbol, it's probably going to be a hidden tattoo. I feel like inner thigh is a good place for it, since I'm saving stomach/hips for post-35-years-old (no babies) and boobage for the red quill. I want this one in red, too.

Ok. I'm gonna email Cat.

the tattoo, not the lady ;p