Ok, so I'm stalling on the tattoo post, partly because I haven't been able to upload to flickr (my connection at home is "borrowed" so I can't rely on it) and partly because, while I'm okay with explaining the "it" tag, part of me wonders if it's necessary. My brother has been giving me a hard time about this tattoo because he doesn't "get it," but I don't get tattoos for other people, so who cares, right? Of course, if he did completely understand it he might feel very uncomfortable with the images in his head such understanding might evoke.
Anyway...
I had to go to the dentist today. The last time I went, they said I had a cavity that I needed to get filled. I never got it filled. Today, they said "no cavities, yaay!" ;D I win! Or my teeth win?
What else... I had a little psychic journey last night and came up with a theory that might blow my mind if it's true... I also learned on Saturday night that you can make delicious pizza on wraps if you broil it instead of bake it (so the bread part doesn't burn, but the rest of it cooks fast!). I think I might put The Tower on hold and work on The Poppet and the Lune instead...
I know, I know. It sounds bad. It sounds like I'm not confronting the novel. But I just have this feeling like it's not ready. I've been writing novel after novel for so long, I think I could use a break. Not from writing! Just from novels. TPatL is a series of short stories. I can finish the first one, and then see how I feel about The Tower. Yesh? One of the things I must keep in mind while trying to manifest publication and success is that everything comes in its right time. I'm not in a hurry. The Universe has delivered, and it's up to me to align with that reality. If I'm pressuring myself to get a novel done, that's not "being in the flow." I need to love the writing I'm doing, to see it as an act of joy. If I can't do that with the novel now, I think the short story is a good stepping stone.
Besides, holy shit, I'm leaving for Oxford in ONE WEEK :O omgomgomg I hope I meet people on the plane that are going to Brookes, and that they are nice.
Wow...
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Anyway...
I had to go to the dentist today. The last time I went, they said I had a cavity that I needed to get filled. I never got it filled. Today, they said "no cavities, yaay!" ;D I win! Or my teeth win?
What else... I had a little psychic journey last night and came up with a theory that might blow my mind if it's true... I also learned on Saturday night that you can make delicious pizza on wraps if you broil it instead of bake it (so the bread part doesn't burn, but the rest of it cooks fast!). I think I might put The Tower on hold and work on The Poppet and the Lune instead...
I know, I know. It sounds bad. It sounds like I'm not confronting the novel. But I just have this feeling like it's not ready. I've been writing novel after novel for so long, I think I could use a break. Not from writing! Just from novels. TPatL is a series of short stories. I can finish the first one, and then see how I feel about The Tower. Yesh? One of the things I must keep in mind while trying to manifest publication and success is that everything comes in its right time. I'm not in a hurry. The Universe has delivered, and it's up to me to align with that reality. If I'm pressuring myself to get a novel done, that's not "being in the flow." I need to love the writing I'm doing, to see it as an act of joy. If I can't do that with the novel now, I think the short story is a good stepping stone.
Besides, holy shit, I'm leaving for Oxford in ONE WEEK :O omgomgomg I hope I meet people on the plane that are going to Brookes, and that they are nice.
Wow...
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Cat sent me her initial sketches for my tattoo this weekend! Yes, yes, I know you're saying "but Maddie, didn't you just get a tattoo?" Well, trust me, there's this thing that has defined my adult life that I have finally grasped and dissolved and this tattoo came synchronistically into my brain as I did that... it's impossible to explain.
I'M SO EXCITED!
I'M SO EXCITED!
Feed the addiction
Jan. 12th, 2009 01:07 pmSo shakti is the primordial creative force according to Hinduism. It's also divine feminine energy. So the symbol, the adi shakti naturally calls to me to be tattooed on my body. I've been a total heterosexual lesbian lately. Women are so sexy; we're amazing creatures. I'm feeling all kinds of empowered about my own gender these past few months, and for the first time in forever I feel a real connection with the rest of the girls, as a girl. I'm not saying I was ever a tomboy, I just never considered myself very feminine. It seemed like a weakness, or at least I didn't want to encourage the duality of the universe.
Anyway.
That symbol is awesome, and it looks like a few different things to me. I'd like to get it as a tattoo, but altered- instead of the sword in the middle, a goddess with her arms upraised. Then again, I might just like it as it is. It's interesting that there are three swords in such a feminine symbol... but anyway, it being a super female-energy-related symbol, it's probably going to be a hidden tattoo. I feel like inner thigh is a good place for it, since I'm saving stomach/hips for post-35-years-old (no babies) and boobage for the red quill. I want this one in red, too.
Ok. I'm gonna email Cat.
Anyway.
That symbol is awesome, and it looks like a few different things to me. I'd like to get it as a tattoo, but altered- instead of the sword in the middle, a goddess with her arms upraised. Then again, I might just like it as it is. It's interesting that there are three swords in such a feminine symbol... but anyway, it being a super female-energy-related symbol, it's probably going to be a hidden tattoo. I feel like inner thigh is a good place for it, since I'm saving stomach/hips for post-35-years-old (no babies) and boobage for the red quill. I want this one in red, too.
Ok. I'm gonna email Cat.
And here it is
Dec. 15th, 2008 11:07 am
A nice little tattoo, on my back, over my heart :) I might try to spiff it up a bit with embellishments, but I don't wanna mess it up.
Guess what? I'm going to be submitting query letters for The Hierophant today. And there is one agency doing a "query holiday" in which they're just asking for a cover page and the first chapter/20 pages of your novel (because, like most authors, they see that how well you can write a query letter isn't as important as how well you can write novels). Firebrandliterary.com, check 'em out if you have something ready to submit.
:D
I'm so excited about everything...
I have so much stuff to do this week, it's amazing considering I don't even have a job. And none of it has to do with Christmas, even! I'm done with that- except for one gift for one person, I'm not sure what to get. But Laura is moving in soon, so I have to get this place cleaned up and re-organized (how to squeeze two girls into a one-bedroom apartment...), but it needs to happen anyway. I have too much junk ;p But I guess it's a good thing my cats don't let me sleep in past 7:30 any more cause there is much work to be done in the coming weeks...
OH and Yellow Rose in Formaldehyde screened last night (the movie I helped Max film back in September- I got credit for sound, script supervisor, and grip, lol) and it was fantastic. My parents loved it- though I thought it was a little slow, but that didn't surprise me because Max loves Kubrik. Anyway, I am proud to have my name attached to this film.
Life is good :)
Return of the Butterflies
Oct. 27th, 2008 10:54 amSo I'm sick to my stomach with adrenaline again, and I can't tell if it's because my body is predicting the future AGAIN or if I'm really just totally freaking out about my appointment on Halloween for my tattoo (so, ok, I can't keep secrets). I've got two already, and they didn't really hurt, but the guy told me "rib tattoos are really painful" and I'm all scared now. I shouldn't be. I tested- yes, I poked myself with a needle several times in a row- and it doesn't hurt too bad. Maybe he was thinking I meant a different part of the ribs?
Anyway. Life is good. Everything is working out for me to go to Oxford: Laura is transferring to Villa Maria in the Spring which means she needs a place around here, so she's gonna take over my apartment for a few months! Yaaaay! Now all I need is to hear back from Brookes and Brockport. I'm so freaking excited!
Also, I have crap loads of writing to do this week BEFORE NaNoWriMo. I must finish this draft before 4:30pm Friday. I still need to fight water sprites, find inner magic, save Trebor, fight more demons, go to prom, and end the book. I don't know exactly how I want to end it. I mean, it's a sad ending, but I've gotta try to make it not *so* sad, so that people will want to read the sequel.
AND I still need to think of my story for NaNo.
It's gonna be a hell of a week, if I can get through it without making myself sick. ;p
Anyway. Life is good. Everything is working out for me to go to Oxford: Laura is transferring to Villa Maria in the Spring which means she needs a place around here, so she's gonna take over my apartment for a few months! Yaaaay! Now all I need is to hear back from Brookes and Brockport. I'm so freaking excited!
Also, I have crap loads of writing to do this week BEFORE NaNoWriMo. I must finish this draft before 4:30pm Friday. I still need to fight water sprites, find inner magic, save Trebor, fight more demons, go to prom, and end the book. I don't know exactly how I want to end it. I mean, it's a sad ending, but I've gotta try to make it not *so* sad, so that people will want to read the sequel.
AND I still need to think of my story for NaNo.
It's gonna be a hell of a week, if I can get through it without making myself sick. ;p