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i got the squiggle over the n!
so here's another chapter in the epic tale of Myla Fantastik:
after a long and busy phase of life that has only just begun to wane, one morning, lying in bed, attempting to rouse herself from slumber, Myla spots a book beside her on the shelf. She picks it up and skims through the pages, and once again is returned to the path of the five elements. as she sets her foot upon this road, it all becomes vivid once more. her mind pulsates with will, the world seems so much bigger, and she just a fleck of dust drifting about the universe. her heart feels light, in that happily nauseating way. her thoughts clamor for attention, each it's own valid isolated concept waiting for her to explore it. she wants to write, she wants to read, she wants to travel and learn and grow...
...but more than anything else, she wants to have power.
ahem. translation: i haven't been checking out pagan stuff lately, and i looked at a book and got reinvolved. since then, i've finally started getting interested in my writing again, and excited about life, and i re-recognized how totally deeply and truly I love Scott. going away to college will be a cinch. i'll miss him, yeah, but i won't worry about us while i'm away. and when i do see him it will be amazing.
yeah, i want power. i want to be a powerful person, who commands their own life successfully, and adding tricks from grimoires is what makes me pagan in the literal and not "biblical" sense.
ahhhhhh life.
yesterday made me very happy. i think i should be awesome like that more often. it's strange, you know. it seems that our generation is all about seeking who they really are, and trying to think of things they can do to gain life experience and knowledge. all the generations before us just did things, naturally, and they got what we want now.
hmm.
so i'm going to be the best little pagan I can and keep focused on my work/school/life. and party all the time, even if i'm the only one there. because that's what it's all about, really.
so here's another chapter in the epic tale of Myla Fantastik:
after a long and busy phase of life that has only just begun to wane, one morning, lying in bed, attempting to rouse herself from slumber, Myla spots a book beside her on the shelf. She picks it up and skims through the pages, and once again is returned to the path of the five elements. as she sets her foot upon this road, it all becomes vivid once more. her mind pulsates with will, the world seems so much bigger, and she just a fleck of dust drifting about the universe. her heart feels light, in that happily nauseating way. her thoughts clamor for attention, each it's own valid isolated concept waiting for her to explore it. she wants to write, she wants to read, she wants to travel and learn and grow...
...but more than anything else, she wants to have power.
ahem. translation: i haven't been checking out pagan stuff lately, and i looked at a book and got reinvolved. since then, i've finally started getting interested in my writing again, and excited about life, and i re-recognized how totally deeply and truly I love Scott. going away to college will be a cinch. i'll miss him, yeah, but i won't worry about us while i'm away. and when i do see him it will be amazing.
yeah, i want power. i want to be a powerful person, who commands their own life successfully, and adding tricks from grimoires is what makes me pagan in the literal and not "biblical" sense.
ahhhhhh life.
yesterday made me very happy. i think i should be awesome like that more often. it's strange, you know. it seems that our generation is all about seeking who they really are, and trying to think of things they can do to gain life experience and knowledge. all the generations before us just did things, naturally, and they got what we want now.
hmm.
so i'm going to be the best little pagan I can and keep focused on my work/school/life. and party all the time, even if i'm the only one there. because that's what it's all about, really.
