lathriel | steely resolve is falling from me

i have this idea that bothers me a lot (in that i think i get my religious ideals down pat but then it comes back to this) that can basically be summed up in "There are no absolutes" "In all of my universe I have seen no law of nature, unchanging and inexorable. This universe presents only changing relationships which are sometimes seen as laws by short-lived awareness. These fleshly sensoria which we call self are ephemera withering in the blaze of infinity, fleetingly aware of temporary conditions which confine our activities and change as our activities change. If you must label the absolute, use it's proper name: Temporary."

but then there's also the whole... well, unfortunately this was summed up very well by a scam artist... physical illusion, and, don't call me nuts, because it goes hand in hand with what was stated above. anything proven can be disproven. what sort of solid universe is that?
well, anyway, if any of it is true, and i believe it is, then i guess i'm kind of a poseur. because i know that the energy i use is everywhere and that everthing touches it, so why do i need all this glitter and gold to get to it?
i guess because it's fun.
well, when i achieve some heightened state of spiritual awareness (and prowess i guess would actually work here) i can leave it behind i guess. but i think i'm still a poseur? is that right?
i'm comfused.
i don't like the word poseur anyway.

off to work!