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lathrielWhat's this? Two posts in one day? Madness!
I have been slowly building another small/big epiphany today. This is the gist of it- I know a lot of things analytically. I believe a lot of things analytically. But emotionally my soul protests this reality.
I am unemployed. I haven't had luck finding a job. This naturally causes some concern- but why? Because if I'm not concerned, I'm irresponsible. Well, that's not good enough. I don't believe that responsibility means worrying myself into despair. I do what I can each day through actions to find and land a job- now I need to do what I can emotionally and spiritually to align myself with an income.
I have been feeling guilty for sleeping in while unemployed, so I try to get up early. Why do I feel guilty? Because I don't want to waste the day. But the thing is, I write best in the evening and at night, and I do my best internetting (in other words, job hunting) in the morning, and no matter how well rested I am I don't feel like doing anything other than reading or napping come 2pm. So, I am unemployed, and I've resolved not to worry (but to anticipate!). So, why not also take advantage? Not just of the free time, but of the freedom of my time.
Here is a schedule I would like to test out:
8am: Wake up; do some stretching/physical therapy; shower; eat breakfast; look for and apply to jobs/follow up on any leads for employment; handle other professional or important communications
Noon: Lunch
12:30: Errand running; apartment cleaning; wedding planning; all the etcetera I don't usually plan too far in advance; sometimes go to the gym (that's right, I got myself a gym membership again! Getting a head start on the 10-15 pounds I usually lose over summer [and gain over winter]).
Any time after 2 and before 6: Nap. Unless I'm not tired, in which case: read.
After nap: Internet (I know I won't be able to stay away, so I might as well schedule it in :p); dinner.
7-ish: Pick a coffee shop (any coffee shop!) and WRITE.
11-ish: Phone date with Jared.
After phone date: Write some more! Until I start to fall asleep.
This works with my natural sleeping patterns, without making me feel like a bum: I often am not the least bit tired until 3 in the morning; I can easily wake up between 7am and 8am, but after that my body wants to start the sleep cycle again; no matter how much or how little sleep I get the night before, I always begin to crash around 2:30, which can usually be handled by a short nap; I write best after dinner and into the night.
Sounds good to me! I'll give it a test drive as starting tonight.
Also: I got a second call for pet sitting services today. Two days in a row! The hell people, where were you last summer when I posted those fliers? I'm hoping this means that my energy is aligned with working with animals, and that I'll be getting a job at a vet's office after all!
I have been slowly building another small/big epiphany today. This is the gist of it- I know a lot of things analytically. I believe a lot of things analytically. But emotionally my soul protests this reality.
I am unemployed. I haven't had luck finding a job. This naturally causes some concern- but why? Because if I'm not concerned, I'm irresponsible. Well, that's not good enough. I don't believe that responsibility means worrying myself into despair. I do what I can each day through actions to find and land a job- now I need to do what I can emotionally and spiritually to align myself with an income.
I have been feeling guilty for sleeping in while unemployed, so I try to get up early. Why do I feel guilty? Because I don't want to waste the day. But the thing is, I write best in the evening and at night, and I do my best internetting (in other words, job hunting) in the morning, and no matter how well rested I am I don't feel like doing anything other than reading or napping come 2pm. So, I am unemployed, and I've resolved not to worry (but to anticipate!). So, why not also take advantage? Not just of the free time, but of the freedom of my time.
Here is a schedule I would like to test out:
8am: Wake up; do some stretching/physical therapy; shower; eat breakfast; look for and apply to jobs/follow up on any leads for employment; handle other professional or important communications
Noon: Lunch
12:30: Errand running; apartment cleaning; wedding planning; all the etcetera I don't usually plan too far in advance; sometimes go to the gym (that's right, I got myself a gym membership again! Getting a head start on the 10-15 pounds I usually lose over summer [and gain over winter]).
Any time after 2 and before 6: Nap. Unless I'm not tired, in which case: read.
After nap: Internet (I know I won't be able to stay away, so I might as well schedule it in :p); dinner.
7-ish: Pick a coffee shop (any coffee shop!) and WRITE.
11-ish: Phone date with Jared.
After phone date: Write some more! Until I start to fall asleep.
This works with my natural sleeping patterns, without making me feel like a bum: I often am not the least bit tired until 3 in the morning; I can easily wake up between 7am and 8am, but after that my body wants to start the sleep cycle again; no matter how much or how little sleep I get the night before, I always begin to crash around 2:30, which can usually be handled by a short nap; I write best after dinner and into the night.
Sounds good to me! I'll give it a test drive as starting tonight.
Also: I got a second call for pet sitting services today. Two days in a row! The hell people, where were you last summer when I posted those fliers? I'm hoping this means that my energy is aligned with working with animals, and that I'll be getting a job at a vet's office after all!
