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What's this? Two posts in one day? Madness!

I have been slowly building another small/big epiphany today. This is the gist of it- I know a lot of things analytically. I believe a lot of things analytically. But emotionally my soul protests this reality.

I am unemployed. I haven't had luck finding a job. This naturally causes some concern- but why? Because if I'm not concerned, I'm irresponsible. Well, that's not good enough. I don't believe that responsibility means worrying myself into despair. I do what I can each day through actions to find and land a job- now I need to do what I can emotionally and spiritually to align myself with an income.

I have been feeling guilty for sleeping in while unemployed, so I try to get up early. Why do I feel guilty? Because I don't want to waste the day. But the thing is, I write best in the evening and at night, and I do my best internetting (in other words, job hunting) in the morning, and no matter how well rested I am I don't feel like doing anything other than reading or napping come 2pm. So, I am unemployed, and I've resolved not to worry (but to anticipate!). So, why not also take advantage? Not just of the free time, but of the freedom of my time.

Here is a schedule I would like to test out:

8am: Wake up; do some stretching/physical therapy; shower; eat breakfast; look for and apply to jobs/follow up on any leads for employment; handle other professional or important communications

Noon: Lunch

12:30: Errand running; apartment cleaning; wedding planning; all the etcetera I don't usually plan too far in advance; sometimes go to the gym (that's right, I got myself a gym membership again! Getting a head start on the 10-15 pounds I usually lose over summer [and gain over winter]).

Any time after 2 and before 6: Nap. Unless I'm not tired, in which case: read.

After nap: Internet (I know I won't be able to stay away, so I might as well schedule it in :p); dinner.

7-ish: Pick a coffee shop (any coffee shop!) and WRITE.

11-ish: Phone date with Jared.

After phone date: Write some more! Until I start to fall asleep.

This works with my natural sleeping patterns, without making me feel like a bum: I often am not the least bit tired until 3 in the morning; I can easily wake up between 7am and 8am, but after that my body wants to start the sleep cycle again; no matter how much or how little sleep I get the night before, I always begin to crash around 2:30, which can usually be handled by a short nap; I write best after dinner and into the night.

Sounds good to me! I'll give it a test drive as starting tonight.

Also: I got a second call for pet sitting services today. Two days in a row! The hell people, where were you last summer when I posted those fliers? I'm hoping this means that my energy is aligned with working with animals, and that I'll be getting a job at a vet's office after all!

Date: 2010-02-11 06:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] painted-dreams.livejournal.com
Job hunting is such a drag.. It really puts the bore in being an adult. How are you searching for jobs? On Craigslist? Have you thought about going into teaching through an alternative pathway or something?

Date: 2010-02-11 01:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lathriel.livejournal.com
I got a bunch of websites from the library's employments resource center. I've applied for some subbing jobs, but I really don't like kids, lol. Also I've just about given up on craigslist- I applied to over 100 jobs in the past month, and only 2 responses were legitimate and not scams :p

Date: 2010-02-11 02:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mermaiden.livejournal.com
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!! Sounds PERFECT, Miss Maddie~ *LOVE*

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