lathriel: (desert)
My birthday is next week, Tuesday- slightly overshadowed by the fact that Sarah and I are releasing our very first published books into the world. I'll be 26 years old.

Time and age and birthdays are a very weird thing to me. I have a loose sense of all of them. I always, always celebrate change, even change as ambiguous as the passage of time. I've always celebrated my birthday, too- not necessarily for my birth, but for an excuse to celebrate something, together, with friends.

I'm not disappointed that I'm not going to have time for a birthday party this year. But I'm craving some time to reflect, to really sit still and look at life and the places I've been. Life has been a whirlwind since 2008- writing The Hierophant in 3 months, going to England for a semester, coming home, meeting Jared, graduating from college, moving, getting married, finishing TPaL, getting a job, and self publishing... and I'm beginning to realize, that's life. When it slows down, I'll be dead.

I'd like to sit down and make some goals. I'd like to look at what I want in the next ten years, where I think I'm going. I'd like time to really appreciate what I've done up to this year, and take the time to be celebrate in my own way.

Hopefully after the book release I'll not only get time back for writing, but have a day or so to just relax and meditate and walk, and be with my thoughts.

(Although, you know, if I'm busy being an overnight SENSATION I won't complain ;D)
lathriel: (eek)
Thank you all for your wonderful birthday wishes! It was a great day indeed ;D

My parents took Jared and I to Shango for dinner, a New Orleans bistro with AMAZING food and an extensive beer and wine list. Mmm. So good. Then we went to Butterwood for dessert instead of a traditional cake, and split chocolate martinis and some absurdly delicious and decadent treats. I was so full at the end of the night I couldn't tell if the alcohol was affecting me or if I was going into diabetic shock. (ya never know...) To make things even more awesome, Jared and I went home (yes, it is our HOME now :D) and watched Atonement, which I adore and he had never seen (but he liked it!). It's a rare treat for us to watch good movies these days- we mostly get our kicks from watching really bad movies, like Dario Argento's Phantom of the Opera (Oh Julian Sands... you remarkable actor you... :P). (Two words about that movie, also: Telepathic Rats.... Uh huh.)

Also a reward for making it through 25 years of life (or, "for my birthday gift) my mother got me a Kindle! :D :D :D So now, friends, if you have writing you want me to read, send it this way! I have the means to carry your million page manuscript with me wherever I go! I'm so psyched for this. Also, for travel- how awesome to not have to leave a book I loved/paid airport prices for behind just because it wont fit in my suitcase?

And, as a gift to myself, I bought Scrivener Friday night with some of the down-payment money i received for my freelance job. It was also an investment in my career ;) It. Is. Awesome. I highly recommend it to all my writer friends who have ever dreamed of setting up a war/writing strategy room with cork boards and index cards and filing cabinets full of research and images and ideas... it IS that, but it's all on a single window on your computer. Cats can't come in and rip down your index cards! And you can compile the summaries on your index cards to make a basic outline, which makes writing a synopsis easy as cake. Or pie, whichever you prefer. And, when you just want to straight up write, you can choose "full screen" and it just becomes a black screen with an off-white book page in the middle. Nice. And those are only some of the features! It's only $40, and I think you all owe it to yourselves to invest in your careers.

Apparently Jared was going to take me to Hershey Park this weekend, but then discovered it's about 6 hours from Buffalo (oops). He has a backup plan, but he's all disappointed and thinks he's a bad fiance now, also because he tried to get me flowers yesterday after work but the places he went to only had crappy bouquets. So cute. Also on that front, he absolutely adores his new job/the "consumers" he works with :)

Tonight, swing dance lesson and cuddling! Maybe unpacking some more of my junk? Hanging art/posters? With the excitement never cease?!
lathriel: (violin)
Ah yes, a quarter of a century has passed since I burst forth from my mother's womb amidst a parade of Crowley-esque auspices (17th, at 7pm, 7lbs, eehhh?). The world's heart skipped a beat that day- in terror or in love, I cannot say.

:D

This time last year I was wandering about London town, eating Chinese food and purchasing the last of my souvenirs. Amazing where you can find yourself in a year! I might not be in the UK, but I think I'm in an even better place right now: graduated from college, working, writing, madly in love with my soul mate, and planning our wedding (!!!). Really, planning our lives too. And it's funny: I've dreamed and imagined for as long as I can remember about getting published and making it big. And if that had happened before this past September, I would have never met Jared. Or at least, my chances would have been a lot slimmer.

Meanwhile, here I am actually kind of "settling down" (AH!) in a way, and thinking about the future, and.... yeah, publishing is in it... but it's not all that's there. I feel like, with Jared around now (and FOREVER mwahaha), the rest of my life story has fleshed itself out a little bit. Like, before the love interest was introduced, my outline was flat, two-dimensional, lacking real depth or development of character. Now it's real. And there's so much more I want to do this year and in the coming years. I want to learn French while Jared learns German, so we can travel to Europe with respect and not expect everyone to speak English. I want to buy land and a house, and build an animal rescue. I want to make bad horror movies that are well-written. I want to paint the interior of our house ridiculously bright colors. I want to learn to swing dance pretty damn well.

I think we might, even, possibly, someday, want to have a kid or two.

Weird.

Anyway, I do want to get published still. But mostly, and more than that, I just want to write, regardless of who is reading it. And that's the truth.

Ok, well, I am still at work so I'd better get back to that. Happy birthday to me! I am enjoying being older and wiser than I was yesterday :D

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