The subject is subjective... ;D

I need to update this thing more regularly so that it's actually a journal, not a series of lists of recent events.

So, I am still job hunting, but I'm doing much better with the way I'm handling it emotionally. I woke up one day and realized that worrying about it doesn't accomplish anything. Simple enough, right? But so hard to see when you're in the throes of despair. I'm still harassing the massage place- the doctor that does interviews was called out of town, so my interview is postponed. I have to keep on their asses though because no one even bothered to call to cancel my original interview that was supposed to happen last Thursday. I've also applied to Brighton Eggert Animal Clinic, which has openings for vet assistants and receptionists! I'm going to call this afternoon to bug them to look at my application. I have no idea how much either of these jobs pay, but if I can get at least 30 hours a week even on minimum wage I'll be able to survive. I'm pretty sure both jobs will pay at least $10/hour though, so woo hoo! If I get one. Which I will. Or I will get an even better job. :P

I've been filled with ideas lately, probably because I hadn't been writing for a while. Not just story ideas (although those have been clamoring for attention too), but random project ideas, ideas for self-promotion, and weird novelty product ideas. I've begun a new blog, but I can't tell you what it is about because my identity must remain secret... heheheh. Needless to say, I think it will be fun once I get the ball rolling on it.

I've updated TPaL successfully for the past three weeks! woo hoo! My readership appears to have gone down though, so I invested 15 dollars into facebook advertising. Meh, why not? Maybe an agent will come across it... hee... hee... Anyway I'm hoping to write a little bit every day until it's finished. Yesterday I did more editing than writing, but I did get a few paragraphs down. I need to temper my creativity- it's been wanting to burst lately, and that's why it's been difficult to focus, but I know I need to let it trickle out slowly or else the dam is going to break and the energy will flood me. Holy metaphors Batman!

Writing therapy tonight! So much good to talk about. Thank god I got over my mopeyness :P And thank all of you who have been so supportive while I'm going through this phase of unemployment! Your kind words have been invaluable to me ;-;

Oh, and one more thing. I've decided what I want the theme for my bachelorette party to be:





muwahaha!

To shatter the bones of reality, and reshape its face

What's this? Two posts in one day? Madness!

I have been slowly building another small/big epiphany today. This is the gist of it- I know a lot of things analytically. I believe a lot of things analytically. But emotionally my soul protests this reality.

I am unemployed. I haven't had luck finding a job. This naturally causes some concern- but why? Because if I'm not concerned, I'm irresponsible. Well, that's not good enough. I don't believe that responsibility means worrying myself into despair. I do what I can each day through actions to find and land a job- now I need to do what I can emotionally and spiritually to align myself with an income.

I have been feeling guilty for sleeping in while unemployed, so I try to get up early. Why do I feel guilty? Because I don't want to waste the day. But the thing is, I write best in the evening and at night, and I do my best internetting (in other words, job hunting) in the morning, and no matter how well rested I am I don't feel like doing anything other than reading or napping come 2pm. So, I am unemployed, and I've resolved not to worry (but to anticipate!). So, why not also take advantage? Not just of the free time, but of the freedom of my time.

Here is a schedule I would like to test out:

8am: Wake up; do some stretching/physical therapy; shower; eat breakfast; look for and apply to jobs/follow up on any leads for employment; handle other professional or important communications

Noon: Lunch

12:30: Errand running; apartment cleaning; wedding planning; all the etcetera I don't usually plan too far in advance; sometimes go to the gym (that's right, I got myself a gym membership again! Getting a head start on the 10-15 pounds I usually lose over summer [and gain over winter]).

Any time after 2 and before 6: Nap. Unless I'm not tired, in which case: read.

After nap: Internet (I know I won't be able to stay away, so I might as well schedule it in :p); dinner.

7-ish: Pick a coffee shop (any coffee shop!) and WRITE.

11-ish: Phone date with Jared.

After phone date: Write some more! Until I start to fall asleep.

This works with my natural sleeping patterns, without making me feel like a bum: I often am not the least bit tired until 3 in the morning; I can easily wake up between 7am and 8am, but after that my body wants to start the sleep cycle again; no matter how much or how little sleep I get the night before, I always begin to crash around 2:30, which can usually be handled by a short nap; I write best after dinner and into the night.

Sounds good to me! I'll give it a test drive as starting tonight.

Also: I got a second call for pet sitting services today. Two days in a row! The hell people, where were you last summer when I posted those fliers? I'm hoping this means that my energy is aligned with working with animals, and that I'll be getting a job at a vet's office after all!