Wow.

[lathriel]

So, hello law of attraction, your evidence is manifold today. I was mid-post of this entry when I read my best friend's entry that dealt partially with the fear that this directly opposes...

I realized last night when I was washing my face (a typical time for a mind-boggling realization) that... I don't care if The Lotus Children series ever gets published.

Jiggawhat?

I know. It's still weird to me. But I've written Renaissance, and I love it, and I still love all the characters, and the story, and some day I will write the other six books. But... I don't know. Maybe it's because the story is so close to my heart- it's a part of me that represents much more than how well I tell stories, or how stubborn I must be to hold onto an idea for (going on) fourteen years. But as long as I do tell the story, at least once, I know that it is enough. It's such a relief to not care.

Of course, that won't stop me from trying to get it published.

I... I can't tell if I feel this way about all of my stories. I have a feeling of certainty that gets in the way- I am certain I will be published soon. So, if I say "i don't care if I ever get published" is that partially because I already know I will be? I guess it doesn't matter. I have high hopes for so many of my novels and stories- but if this one or that one never hits the presses, who cares? I'm young- I have a lifetime of story ideas waiting for me.

And of course, once I'm super famous the publishers will eat up anything they can get from me- am I right? ;D Ahh optimism.

Comments

[taurnufuin.livejournal.com]

I'm leaning towards suspecting that an attitude like that probably makes you more likely to write a quality piece of literature. That is, if you don't give a damn about how others react to the work, you're perhaps more likely to create what you think is worthwhile, as opposed to what you, unconsciously or otherwise, think is more likely to be accepted by the mainstream.