lathriel | duuuh, girls r stoopid

The harder you try, and the more fervently you believe, and the greater security you feel =

the harder life kicks you in the throat and the more fervently it digs through your heart and the greater the wad of phlegm it spits upon you.

Today, I was told that I was entirely unimportant to the group of people I've worked with for 2 and a half years. Today, I also gave my two weeks notice to a chauvinist who didn't give a shit and have received little to no support in this rather big decision.
Today, I also learned that Scott is basically still smoking.
Last week, I pretty much realized that our relationship of 4 and a half years will be ending in the near future (for no really discernible reason other than "feelings").

I'm not feeling very causative.
I'm not feeling very spiritual today.
I'm not feeling very positive.
I'm not feeling very much of anything other than the just-barely-resistible urge to pack my hiking backpack and run off and destroy my credit by maxing out all my cards and never come back to WNY again.