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lathrieljust got back from lunch/breakfast with Essie. Good to see her. I think I should visit fredonia more often instead of moping around buffalo complaining about how I don't have any friends.
yesterday was pretty enlightening. apparently I'm a little bitch who can't stand up for herself, and I never realized it because I'm such a little bitch. yeah. I can't remember one instance, besides with my parents, where I've yelled at someone who'd done me wrong. I usually write a polite letter or something civil, which is all well and good but i'm not dealing with the actual rage.
then there's the leg, which has to do with some ancestrial imprints of jerks who think women should stay at home. yeah. i'm in pain, so I don't leave the house, so my leg gets worse, and i can't leave the house, and my leg gets worse... etc. she pulled that bitch out. now I just have to get rid of their impression.
also, something scared the crap out of me at birth, so I'm not entirely in my body. yeah, just take my word for it. but basically all this disoriented incarnation stuff i was talking about, like, feeling like i shouldn't have been incarnated? I was semi-right. I didn't have to incarnate, but I chose to, and then I backed out but it was too late.
good job maddie!
well, we're doing a soul-retrieval at the end of october to get me grounded before i just float off into the ether (this also explains why my entire life has felt like I was on drugs).
1 more week till camping!
yesterday was pretty enlightening. apparently I'm a little bitch who can't stand up for herself, and I never realized it because I'm such a little bitch. yeah. I can't remember one instance, besides with my parents, where I've yelled at someone who'd done me wrong. I usually write a polite letter or something civil, which is all well and good but i'm not dealing with the actual rage.
then there's the leg, which has to do with some ancestrial imprints of jerks who think women should stay at home. yeah. i'm in pain, so I don't leave the house, so my leg gets worse, and i can't leave the house, and my leg gets worse... etc. she pulled that bitch out. now I just have to get rid of their impression.
also, something scared the crap out of me at birth, so I'm not entirely in my body. yeah, just take my word for it. but basically all this disoriented incarnation stuff i was talking about, like, feeling like i shouldn't have been incarnated? I was semi-right. I didn't have to incarnate, but I chose to, and then I backed out but it was too late.
good job maddie!
well, we're doing a soul-retrieval at the end of october to get me grounded before i just float off into the ether (this also explains why my entire life has felt like I was on drugs).
1 more week till camping!
